CELEBRATE LIFE

Through a quick search, I found out that the meaningful CELEBRATE LIFE bands (available in Yellow, Hot Pink, Sexy Blue and Apple Green & also glow in the dark & inter-locking black & white) by the National Cancer Society of Malaysia can be bought at Starbucks & cost RM5 (except for the interlock one - cost RM10). Read it here. Find a Starbucks near you & get one today..

Now.. how am I going to go get them.. Hmphhh...

Aug 30th, Tues - freedom for some & confusion for me

It's Malaysia's 48th Independence Day tomorrow. Starting from just now (after work), two of my colleagues (a couple) have also been celebrating their "merdeka".. They've resigned & will be getting married in mid of September, which is pretty soon. blablabla.. Congratz to both of them =)

So what's with today? I'm stuck with Mr., perhaps its Mrs. Confusion. Okay, I am just plain crazy today. I went around trying to buy the September issue of Seventeen magazine with the free band - not just any band but the Celebrate Life band, particularly prefering the Blue or Yellow band. Yeah, I was so crazy to find the magazine, I ended up looking in 5 shops, sneaking out from work for several times to go look for it, to no avail.

I also took bout nearly an hour off (around 2.30pm til 3sth pm) to go campus to go to the post office to mail off some contests forms & a birthday card for my little cousin (this brat's birthday 6 days before mine) & to go to the HLA Insurance office. Going to the HLA office seems to be a nightmare for me now. Everytime I go there wanting to collect my claim, I ended up with nothing - because they couldn't find my receipt, or it was close, or no claim to be collected this week & so forth... & today, worse; because I got a hurt finger on my way out. I was too mad cause of the numerous times I had "travelled" there to get my claim but unsuccessful each time that I didn't realise I was holding on to one side of the closed door. So when the other side of the door slammed back (slowly), it caught my finger in between. Darn it.. It was so painful til I couldn't even scream & I nearly cried.. & the finger reamined hurt for hours.. After that, I went to CLC for fun, as I haven't been there for some time to look around.. be a busy body.. then I saw my cousin, we talked a bit & then I walked a bit & I was about to go back to work when I saw a friend & we chatted for awhile.

Obviously, I didn't do much work today as I was way too distracted & customers keep coming by. After work, we headed down to CASO & then for dinner at.. err... hehhehe... I don't know where.. just that we had ikan bakar (direct translation: fried fish) again! Food was so-so la. The small dinner was just a farewell dinner thingy for my 2 colleagues. Yeahh.. I'll need to wait another month before I can go off, before my training is over.. sigh.. it seems so far away...

After training, I would have a 6 weeks break, but then after that would be my final 2 semesters, which would keep my occupied with Final Year Project (FYP)... sigh.. Life after that would be work life, which would suck badly. Better not think so far now.. headache already thinking of FYP.. will probably be meeting some friends tomorrow... No... I'm not doing any Merdeka countdown.. But I am doing my birthday countdown & the end of my industrial training countdown.. =P

Beach-ey... not b*tchy lerr...

So wiped out yesterday. Cheng picked me up at 9am, then went all around town before going to MP at 10am+. So what I did there? Mostly distributing the flyers - done with bout 8-10 stacks.. I think there's about a 100 in each stack. Bumped into a few friends.. Went for dinner with Ai Chin, Siew Woan & ah kor at Pizza Hut at around 7.15pm. The process of waiting for emply table, ordering food, waiting for the food to arrive & eating took more than an hour. Made me so lazy to go back to the last half 20 minutes. blablabla.. conclusion is I didn't go back to work (after calling Cheng cause when I called Boss, he didn't answer) & went shopping awhile with them (friends) before heading home. There was this sports & men wear department in the 3rd floor, I think. Then I said Hey AC, there are those beach-ey wears that you were looking for last time. What they heard? beach-ey as b*tchy.. Gawd. Then everyone had a good laugh..

The wind today seem so strong... Hhmphh.. So strong that after I open the door, when my hand was holding the side of wall, the door slam back on me. Hurt my fingers... Can also hear my house gate shaking, if you get what I mean.. too lazy to ramble on already...

Aug 9th, Tues - sad

First thing I did today in the office is putting up the banting (still not sure of the spelling but it's pronounce like that) with help from Cheng. Boss is annoyed by our (mine & Thomas) slow progress in our project, I guess. Cause he said something bout give him a due date. If no due date, nobody submit anything.. Hmphh.. Better start paying attention to my work.. Else I'll be in trouble..

I'm sad. ;( The new shirt I bought about a week ago, which I've only worn once is kind of "spoilt" in terms of its look. Dirty, contaminated water used to wash the shirt in the washing machine has turn my nice white shirt to spots of beige, here & there. When I washed it yesterday, there were those beige-y spots on the back of the shirt. I thought if I washed it again, it would go away.. Seems worse.. Now the shirt just breaks my heart... ;( *cries* Now, I'm soaking it with Dynamo. Hopefully, those horrible stains would come off.. I've just worn it once.. How could the water do this to me!! Stupid dirty water... *frustrated*

silly lil' funniez..

How about some silly lil' funniez for a Boring Monday evening..

Never Try To Outsmart A Woman!
There was a man who had worked all his life, had saved all of his money & was a real miser when it came to his money. Just before he died, he said to his wife, "When I die, I want you to take all my money & put it in the casket with me. I want to take my money to the afterlife with me."
& so he got his wife to promise him with all her heart that when he died, she would put all of the money in the casket with him. Well, he died. He was stretched out in the casket; his wife was sitting there in black & her friend was sitting next to her. When they finished the ceremony, just before the undertakers got ready to close the casket...
Wife: Wait just a minute!
She had a box with her; she came over with the box & put it in the casket. Then the undertakers locked the casket down & the rolled it away.
Friend: Girl, I know you weren't fool enough to put all that money in there with your husband.
Loyal Wife: Listen, I'm a Christian, I can't go back on my word. I promised him that I was going to put that money in that casket with him.
Friend: You mean to tell me you put that money in the casket with him!!!!?
Wife: I sure did. I got it all together, put it into my account & wrote him a cheque. If he can cash it, he can spend it.

Women Are Smarter Than Men
Due to inherit a fortune when his sickly, widower father died, Charles decided he needed a woman to enjoy it with. Going to a singles' bar, he spotted a woman whose beauty took his breath away.
"I'm just an ordinary man," he said, walking up to her, "but in just a week or two, my father will die and I'll inherit 20 million dollars."
The woman went home with Charles & the next day she became his stepmother.

WOMEN Vs MEN: Women's Revenge
"Cash, check or charge?" I asked, after folding items the woman wished to purchase. As she fumbled for her wallet I noticed a remote control for a television set in her purse. "So, do you always carry your TV remote?" I asked.
"No," she replied, "but my husband refused to come shopping with me, so I figured this was the most legal evil thing I could do to him.

Understanding Women (A Man's Perspective)
I know I'm not going to understand women. I'll never understand how you can take boiling hot wax, pour it onto your upper thigh, rip the hair out by the root & still be afraid of a spider.

Wife Vs Husband
A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word. An earlier discussion had led to an argument & neither of them wanted to concede their position. As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats & pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, "Relatives of yours?" "Yep," the wife replied, "in-laws."

Words
A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day... 30,000 to a man's 15,000.The wife replied, "The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men. The husband then turned to his wife & asked, "What?"

Stupid And Beautiful
A man said to his wife one day, "I don't know how you can be so stupid & so beautiful all at the same time."
The wife responded, "Allow me to explain. God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me; God made me stupid so I would be attracted to you!"

The Beast
Husband & wife were in the midst of a violent quarrel & hubby was losing his temper.
"Be careful," he said to his wife. "You will bring out the beast in me.
"So what?" his wife shot back. "Who's afraid of a mouse?"

Coffee
A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the coffee each morning.
Wife: You should do it, because you get up first & then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee.
Husband: You are in charge of cooking around here and you should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee.
Wife: No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible that the man should do the coffee
Husband: I can't believe that, show me.
So she fetched the Bible & opened the New Testament & showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says.... "HEBREWS"

Halloween
A couple were invited to a swanky family masked fancy dress Halloween party.

The wife got a terrible headache & told her husband to go to the party alone. He, being a devoted husband, protested, but she argued & said she was going to take some aspirin & go to bed & there was no need for his good time to be spoiled by not going. So he took his costume & away he went.

The wife, after sleeping soundly for about an hour, woke without pain & as it was still early, decided to go to the party. As her husband didn't know what her costume was, she thought she would have some fun by watching her husband to see how he acted when she was not with him.

So she joined the party & soon spotted her husband in his costume, cavorting around on the dance floor, dancing with every nice "chick" he could & copping a little feel here & a little kiss there. His wife went up to him & being a rather seductive babe herself, he left his new partner high & dry & devoted his time to her. She let him go as far as he wished, naturally, since he was her husband.

After more drinks he finally he whispered a little proposition in her ear & she agreed, so off they went to one of the cars & had passionate intercourse in the back seat. Just before unmasking at midnight, she slipped away & went home & put the costume away & got into bed, wondering what kind of explanation he would make up for his outrageous behaviour.

She was sitting up reading when he came in, so she asked what kind of time he had.

Husband: Oh, the same old thing. You know I never have a good time when you're not there.
Wife: Did you dance much?
Husband: I'll tell you, I never even danced one dance. When I got there, I met Pete, Bill Brown & some other guys, so we went into the spare room & played poker all evening.
Wife: You must have looked really silly wearing that costume playing poker all night!
Husband: Actually, I gave my costume to your Dad, apparently he had the time of his life.

Dinner

Dinner at err.... I think the shop name is Gula Melaka something.. (hehehe.. can't remember ma..) was quite nice. The restaurant is in town, right after Equatorial Hotel, you take the left turn instead of going straight. It's the first shop right below a cyber cafe. The food served is nice but a little expensive. The Sago Gula Melaka is yummy.. but it's a little small in size, with it's price of RM 1.50. I had Spaghetti Bolognase. The amount of spaghetti was little, but the sauce is a lot. It was also served with a yummy slice of garlic bread. sJ had Fish & Chips. It was served with a tiny piece of fish, loads of fries & a fair amount of salad. For dessert, I had ice-cream. The ice-cream was kind of costly, as it didn't live up to its name on the menu (Puffing Billy, I think) & price..

After dinner, went for a walk in Jonker before heading home..

It's Sunday!!!

Hmm.. can't believe it's actually Sunday. Chilling out by playing games & watching show (Malcolm in the Middle).. will be going for dinner soon..

Yesterday at work was all about trying to do the same old thing for my program, answering phone calls, blablabla... not forgetting feeding Boss daughter who refuses to eat (haha) & trying to get Boss son to not make so much noise when he was left with us (me & Thomas) the whole noon... That guy can talk non stop.. & he can go on & on & on... Arrgh.. I also clamp my first RJ11 @ telephone cable.. Got to go home half hour early cause Boss wife got some things to do

the world has changed..

The world certainly has changed. Gone were the days when you donate because you have the heart to. Just moments ago, some lady monk, I guess, came into the office. She want to give us some "protection" (direct translation from Chinese) card. After she give, out she whips her donation book. Then she force us to donate. She say.. doesn't matter.. so long so you have the heart, little bit also nevermind.

This morning in my wallet only left RM11, which I used to purchase 11 meters of cable, which basically leaves me with nothing. I already so broke.. This monk ask me to donate. I told her I don't have money. She force me to donate. What happen to the world man. Is this the way donation is?? Forcing people to donate? I don't have the money to donate la... Aduhhh.. Worse, I don't have the heart now to donate. In the end I decided to borrow RM5 from Kenny to donate. So I wrote RM5 on her book. Then she make a fuss pulak.. She ask me to donate la RM10. She straightaway cancel out RM5 & wrote RM10 on her book. Errr... miss/madam you think I rich people ah? I already tell you I don't have money, you force me to donate. When I decided to donate RM5, you force me to donate RM10.. That is my one day allowance la.. Now I owe people money all around. My allowance/salary for last month also I haven't get. I'm so frustrated. Arghhhhh....

If I want to donate, I will go to a choice place to donate la.. Maybe people think I so selfish one. Ya.. I am.. =P My allowance also not enough for me to use, how to donate somemore? Spend less? You must be kiddin' =P

Walk of Life

In every walk of life, there will be ups & downs, chills & thrills, blablablahh...

I went to my gramma's house on Saturday & again Sunday. I don't remember seeing so many relatives visiting before. I don't even remember seeing so many of them at CNY reunion. But they were mostly there to console my gramma.

I did not feel much pain or sadness when I first heard that my uncle passed away. But after my trip back home & seeing some relatives red faces & eyes swollen from cries made me feel sad. I feel sad that my cousins (his son & daughters) has lost a good father, his wife for losing a good husband, my gramma who cried & didn't sleep for days for losing a good son. I didn't have much memory of him. But from what I heard, he was a great man.

Conversations made me think of my own life. I feel a very mixed emotion. Sad. Anger. Frustration. Denial. What have I done in my life? I feel like I have been dictated my whole life to do this & that. Is following orders actually something good? I don't think so. Is being protected by someone else good? Don't think so either. Being protected doesn't make you strong. It kills you...slowly. It killed my self-esteem. It made me built walls around me to avoid strangers as much as possible. It made me afraid of many things. What happened to all my dreams? I had to leave them all behind while I go on fulfilling someone else's dream(s).

In less than a year, I'll be graduating. I do not know what the future holds for me. Different people in my life has different hopes for me. What am I suppose to do? Hurt others while I fulfill one of theirs?? What about what I want? I can't predict the future you know. I myself do not know what I really want yet. They seem to change with every major happening around me - be it birth, accidents or death. Please back out from arranging my future for me & let me decide what I want, 'kay? When the time comes, I'll just go with the flow. Why do I want to ponder over this & upset myself now for things that might or might not happen later? I appreciate what you've all done for me. I really do. But I can't go on building more walls around me. Don't deny me a life I want. Don't deny me my dreams. Perhaps later, I might move on & whatever I worry about now will no longer be my problem. Whatever it is, I just want to let everyone in my life, I love & appreciate each & everyone of you.

Someone asked me why I always say love you. I never really told that person the reason. Now I just let you know; that is because I do not know what happens tomorrow. I just want you to know that i love you. & I dedicate this song to all my love ones.. If Tomorrow Never Comes

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake & watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights & lay there in the dark
& the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel about her in my heart

* If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way
To show her every day that she's my only one
& if my time on earth were through
& she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
& avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

*

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes