Will I see you again someday?

Will I see you again... someday
Is there a time for all of us
To gather around
To look back at this moment
This door closes
But not our friendship

Will I see you again... next year
Is there a time for all of us
To come together
And talk about what we're doing

Will I see you again... in 5 years
What would be of you
Maybe you're rich
Maybe you're happily married

Will I see you again... in 10 years
What would be of you
Maybe you'll own your own business
Maybe you'll be there with a few kids

Will I see you again... in 20 years
What would be of us
Would we wished we didn't grew up so quickly
Or would we be glad to be there
To be working like mad, I hope not

Will I see you again... in 30 years
We'll be sending off our kids
To where we were once
Where we spent the last few years as students

Will I see you again... I don't know when
Maybe we'll be rambling on about...
How life has turned out
How our job had been
How your family has been
Maybe your child has marry
Maybe you brought along your grandchild
Maybe this...
And maybe that...

So many maybes in life
So many dreams to fulfill
Will I see you again... someday?

When I leave this place...

Through weathered storms and shiny days
With a blink of an eye
I've spent 4 years here
Even though yesterday felt like the first
But reality is finally sinking in

In a place
Where memories are to be reminiscence
Where people from all walks of life
Left a footstep in my heart

I was feeling happy
To be finally done with exams
To not have to deal with assignments
To be leaving here
To be moving on... to another phase of life

But suddenly
When I need to start packing up
Needing to leave here
Not knowing what would it be like out there
I was hit with a feeling
Deeper than the sea
I was feeling sad

Through the bittersweet
There won't be another time like this for me
And before I leave
I have a little something to say

When I leave this place
I might miss studying a bit
I might miss the campus a little bit more
I might miss the places and the food much more
But mostly...
I'm going to miss all my dear friends
Thank you all for everything
And sorry if I've in any way hurt any of you

This door is closing...
I'm moving on...
But another is opening... v e r y v e r y s l o w l y

Unknown Computer Problem

The computer finally kind-of-crash.. It is so irritating!!

It started on Tuesday. I decided to let my computer rest after "working" for nearly 2 weeks without break. Worse decision I ever made I think. It caused me problems ever since then. Blue screen came up very frequently, forcing me to shut down. Else, it will auto-restart while I'm busy using. Oh yeah.. I should probably tell you that I've 2 OS (Win 2000 & Win XP) on my comp. The problems were occuring in XP. After endless restart(s), I switched to 2000 instead. ... I thought it was working fine... suddenly there were plenty of "program error" here & there.. The problem became so bad I decided to format my comp (which I originally planned to do after my exam).

Worse still... It couldn't "read" some files on the XP cd.. Tried 2 XP SP2 cds & 1XP SP1 cd... A.l.l...t.h.e...s.a.m.e...p.r.o.b.l.e.m...,...can't read some files.. Gave up & went searching for Win2000 cd & installed it. Tried to installed XP also, but can't. Feel so Stupid!! So here I am.. back to old times, with Win2000.. not completely alright, but still usable. Hopefully, this can work for the next 2 & 1/2 weeks. It can crash after that for all I care.

Hacked again...

Seriously, I feel "unsafe" using MMU Webmail. Apparently, I missed the 2nd action, but I manage to get a printscreen of it from the student forum, Next-boards - someone posted it. This time it's really terrible.


On a different note, my FYP presentation was this morning. It didn't went well. Somehow felt betrayed by someone. Well, I'm not gonna b*tch bout it anymore - it just sucks, big time. Just glad it's over. Another 2 weeks til my first final exam..

Hacked...

Just minding my own business... Suddenly someone YM-ed me.. "http://mlkstdmail.mmu.edu.my/src/login.php < ----- look mlk webmail kena hacked ... see how MMU use our money to pay the cheap admin to control this ......"

A screenshot of it for remembrance...


How interesting... MMU Malacca student Webmail site got hacked... Gosh.. I wonder what would the staffs who manage that site do now...

Lousy

Some things just happen when you least expect it. It's been nearly 2 weeks since I've started having "medical" problems. It's really, really annoying. First, there was the heat rash outbreak (still having 'em, but in the healing process). Then there's gastric that lasted a whole day on one of those days when you just need to be super well. After returning from home, those rashes just have a knack of being itchy whenever I'm hot for the whole Tuesday. So what I could do was stay home, be under the fan, showering more frequently & powder myself to keep cool. That didn't seem to be the end of it. The next day, I had running nose.. & the days that followed, I had by sore throat.. which is then followed by mild fever & cough came somewhere along the way. Now, I still have mild sore throat & cough. I hope to be well when Tuesday comes by. There's FYP presentation. Which brings me to...

All the resting in bed made me realise that I haven't been on my best behavior this whole sem. I've slack a lot & just been coasting around. I've been lucky enough to pass my midterms despite all the slack. I know, I know... I could hear voices telling me "you should've studied earlier..". No. Don't bother telling me that again. I'll probably scream at you when I should be grateful & thankful instead. I don't know why I keep doing that. I seem to be irritated quite fast these days. At every, little, small thing. That's not the end of it either. I think I've been the most nightmarish groupmate anyone could ever have. But the damage is done & I don't think there's anything much I could do about it. There's probably people "stabbing" or cursing me.. which I most probably deserve. *Sigh* I've been way out of line.

I'm feeling lousy... I'm a lousy friend, lousy groupmate, lousy this & lousy that. I *think* I'm sabotaging myself. For what? I don't know. There's probably some inner demons that I need to deal with first. Feels like I'm at the limbo.

more than half a day in...

...bed. Yeah. Today, I was in bed for more than half the day. From around 2am till 1pm+, from 3pm+ till 6pm+. This rarely happens, to me anyway. It must have been the lack of sleep & tireness from the pass few days/weeks.

I was wondering whether I should attend the 4pm class.. At first, I wanted to skip because I was too tired to walk to campus (despite the near 12hours sleep I had). Then after talking to a friend, I thought of going. Then the thunder went on & on & on (that I wondered when is the rain going to fall.... now I wondered did it rained after all that thunder?) & my rashes started to itch (a good sign I guess.. itch means healing).. I went to bed.. & I slept through "my class".

A lot had happen in the past week. The most annoying ones are of course the rush of FYP & me having rashes. The perks of last week was going home to be with my family & then going to KL to visit my aunts, uncles, little cousins & of course, my gramma.

I had lots of "blogging material", just to lazy to blog, or was either computer-less or internet-less at the time.. so didn't get them published.

Oh yeah, less than a month before I finish my studies. Argh. It's a bore to think about it.