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Dream Job

Quiz from Facebook tells me my dream job is to be a:

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Chef

You are bold and full of flavor, just like you famous food. You've always had a thing for tastes of things and opened your own restaurant to prove it.
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In a funny way, it's sort of true.
I love 'playing' with food. ;b

Hair Cut Phobia

It is about half a year away from ROM.
I went for a hair cut, or rather trim.
A place I've never went to before.
Before I had finished giving my instructions, the hairdresser started snipping away.
The first snip started near the ear. You know, like boys hairstyle.
I started screaming.
She went on like nobody's business.
WHAT AN IDIOT!!
I turned around and screamed and screamed.
I don't want to go to ROM with short hair.
Who the hell she is to ruin my special day.
Heck, who the hell she is to ruin me.
And scream and curse I did.
Everyone started staring.
But I didn't care.
I went on and on.





















And then I woke up.
Thank God it was all a dream.
And now I have a new phobia.
I'm scared to go cut or trim my hair.
What if the hairdresser just went snipping like that.

Last Day of Feb

Finally, the week is almost up.
Had worked 9am-9pm this whole week (Mon-Fri). Tiring? Still manageable. Guess what? It was boring! After repeating the same thing for days, Friday was a bore. Waiting for 9pm was like WHEE~~

I've been in this new 'department/team' for about 5 months. It's challenging to move from something that is quite the same but yet very different. Felt like giving up at times. I would probably kill myself for saying this, but being a quite new team (the team itself is quite new), the greatest thing is the teamwork.

Guess which part of it I hate the most? The part where it somehow crosses the work I was previously doing and the current. And, the part where I myself is blur and needed guidance and some people just decide to ask question you. The worst part? It was almost like being with a kid who had just learn the 'Why' word. It's like, I don't know lerrr... Why don't you just don't keep Why-ing me? And the part where some people just loves asking you absolutely everything; including ones that you had previously, specifically mentioned before, so that this would not happen. Must you ask every single, simple detail?

On a different note, somebody probably has to tell this somebody that 'all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy'. Oh oh...... the other day, I was reading this book thingy bout office, and I quote "when management talk about improving productivity, they are never talking about themselves". LOL. Any idea how true is that...?

So do I feel motivated enough to work? Beats me.
For now, let me dream.
Am looking forward to 'events': next/next next week, 2 months+ and 6 months+ from now.

ps: don't know why but I feel like I wanna go Genting...? Sheesh~

Chinese New Year is coming to town...

The Ox year would be arriving in 10 days!! Excited? Do your have the CNY mood yet??

Clothes? I lost count and went overboard. Now I have 5 tops and 2 bottoms. Still looking for another bottom - 3/4. When I go out (to look for bottom), I still keep looking at tops. Then I have to remind myself, I've more than enough. Somehow, after I bought this top that's dress like (it's suppose to be a shirt but it's long, look almost like a dress, but too short to be a dress.. you get what am I crapping? So, as I was saying...), suddenly I noticed there's a lot of this type of shirt-dress. Is it like the trend this year??? I was going to buy 2 (different 'pattern' la) the other day, but only bought 1. Now I wonder should I get the other 1 too. It's RM49.90, 20% discount. Cost almost RM40 only. Hmph. Or maybe, I should forget bout it and look for it again in a few months, where it will probably be marked down to 50%, if there's any left.

I planned to make some cookies but after awhile, got too lazy. So far only made 1 jar. =b
Will probably make jellies and my special ice blended juice (ok ok, I kind of copied it from somewhere!) during CNY. What's better than to have cool err.. food? and drinks during the hot 'season'...

Actually, I don't really have that CNY mood yet. Maybe just 20%..? The real reason that I'm looking forward to this CNY...? The other half would be back!! He's posted overseas for training. Haven't seen him for *counts* 2 months! To be honest, I've 'seen' him 2 days ago la. Via webcam. But it's just not the same thing. This CNY would also (most probably) be the last one spent in the house I've grown up in for... *counts* .. for about 15 years!! (Gosh, I feel so old la!)

Nerd?

Not ME!! :D

Endless Eating...

I eat way too much these days. It's like my mouth is so itchy, I just can't stop eating. Like the title says, endless eating.

Today itself:
~8.30am: 1 nasi lemak
~11+am: cheese bread (was bought by my aunt for my breakfast but I saw the nasi lemak in the pantry and could not resist the temptation)
1.15pm: lunch - chicken rice
~2+pm: a slice of raisin bread (it's about 2-3 times the white bread size)
~4+pm: another slice of raisin bread (thank God my colleague came and ate the other raisin bread else I think I will finish all also)

After that, I think & think... I ate wayyy toooo much already. Eating every 2-3 hours??? So I tried my best to stop eating and only drank water as I would be having dinner at 8+pm. Luckily I'm able to resist opening that pack of seducing Rocky biscuits in my drawer. Oh, and still, after that full dinner, I went and ate a strawberry chocolate coated wafer. *slaps forehead* No wonder I've been growing even more horizontally lately.

Am thinking perhaps to go out in the weekends, buy a whole lot of fruits (rockmelon, honeydew, kiwi, mango, strawberry, watermelon), cut and freeze them so that I have cool fruity snacks for the week... What do you think? Definitely healthier than biscuits or junk food right?

Just realized something... Could it be cause I'm teething, hence the mulut gatal?
Bout 3-4 weeks back, I had toothache at the right side (of my mouth la...). Then the inner teeth on top right was somehow "pushed down". The scared me have yet to go to consult the dentist.

What's goin' on...

Lack of updates seems to have become my habit... ;b

These few weeks, there has been changes in my personal and work life. All for the better.. :D

Finally transferred to another team at work this month (after being delayed last month). Trainings and assessments are ongoing. The team was (and is) absorbing more people for upcoming major project and I 'applied' for it and got in. Reason being the old job scope is kind of rigid and boring (to me) after doing the same old thing for about 2 years. All in all, it will be busy after trainings are completed.

Got an awesome birthday surprise last month. Will update on that (or maybe not, given the times I procrastinated over things) when I feel like it. :b

However, will be kind of sad next month, and especially the following few months...

Something you don't see everyday...

Okok. I'm just lazy to update but felt like posting something. So there.

busy or lazy...?

Just realised it's been almost a month since my last post. Haven't been blogging much lately anyway. It's always this or that or the usual laziness. Sometimes I find myself juggling too many things at one time. This week itself was crazy. Working almost half a day daily (11 hours!) the whole week through.


*busy la*
Also, baked. Yes, I do bake... sometimes. Amateur only. Didn't go for any classes. Just picked recipes from books and online. So far, had attempted few different types of cakes and cookies. Sometimes very successful, relatives and friends who tried loves them; but sometimes, I feed the rubbish bin too.

*peach marshmallow cake*

*chocolate chip cookies*

Play with my tortoises daily (at least few mins a day) too... Two of them are very different. One is very greedy, so is almost double its size by now. Just wave (tortoise) food in front of it, it opens its mouth and start chomping. Once, it almost gave me heart attack. I left the container on the basin, in the washroom at that time. When I got back, it was missing. Somehow, it had gotten out from the container and onto the ground. Finally found it hiding somewhere in the washroom. The other is still tiny. And smart. If you hold it in your hand, it willl cruise around your hand but won't dive down if the distance is too far (unlike the big clunky one).

*pic was taken when they first came home*
Besides, went for company amazing hunt (sort of like amazing race style) thingy few weeks ago. Too lazy to elaborate. Won 7th place too (there's about 60 team and there' 10 prizes altogether). Did not expect to win at all as we (4 in a team) were all first timers.
*paddy field pic taken during the hunt*
ps: pictures probably don't look nice cause it's taken using phone camera cause poor me can't afford to buy a cam.. :b

Sleepless

It was like 6am when I finally went to bed.
Woke up, as in got off the bed at 10am.
But then again, I did not really got any sleep.
By 8+am, the phone was like ringing every now and then.

Hopefully, it'll be better tonight?
I'm gonna go clear my mind, as in try not to think about this for today; at least til I come back home. But it's gonna be difficult. Whatever.

Right. My motto right now seems like Whatever.

5+am

Oh man.. It's like 5+am...? & I'm still awake. I can't sleep. So many thoughts. All still up and running. My brain is practically overworking thinking all these things. You know, when you check the Task Manager in your computer & it's utilizating almost all your computer memory that's it's so annoyingly lagging your computer that you just terminate it? Well, my brains are like running high processes that just can't be terminated anyhow anyway. Damn. I can't terminate explorer.exe in my brain. That would just mean coma. I can't reboot. That would mean dead for awhile? I can't shut down. That would mean dead forever. I just want to hibernate (sleep). Why cannot??? What can I do? I've to look for tools to terminate these high processes. During a time like this, it is just so great that some people are so supportive and being so much of a help by inputting more nonsense into my already jammed up processor. I'm being sacarstic okay. I think maybe I should go live by myself? If I can find that cheap, nice place and know the roads around. I should totally live by myself. What the heck. Nobody cares about what I think anyway. I'm like what...? Five years old to them...? Everyone wants and expects different things from me. Gimme a break and understand my situation okay. I'm like going to land in the mental hospital trying to cope with everything going on. Some inputs are like totally not helping okay. Did I just kind of repeated myself? No idea. I'm really unsure what I'm doing for like the past few hours? Make that the past half a day+. I've never drink beer/wine/stuff like that but I was asking for some just now. No, I didn't get any. In fact, if someone would so kindly buy some for me now, I think I will dunk it in. Just to forget everything. Did I just agreed to drink something I hate? I am like so totally hate my life now. I've to go put on fake faces for people around me these few days. The one person who I can be true to like wants nothing to do with me now...? Is there a meaning to my life now? NO. Should I even bother to carry on? I want to shut down. (5.38am now and I am still wide awake. Thoughts at the moment: Why are some people so evil?! What did I do that caused my situation now?). O ya. Thank you so much God for kicking me when I'm down (on Thursday). That was so helpful. Shut down shut down shut down... Where's my shut down button... I can't find it. Anyone know where is it? God? Shut me down? (5.43am) I think I could doze off if I land on the bed but I would probably keep waking up due to nightmares (it happens almost all the time when my brain is processing on high mode) and would probably make me more tired. Should I even bother going to bed? It's like, almost 6am? I could go for a walk/jog. Maybe I will get shut down then. I hate my life (at this point). I need some hugs. Where can I get some? *sobs* (5.48am)


The song playing in my mind now...

Happily Never After

"I don't think I want this anymore"
As she drops the ring to the floor
She says to herself, "You've left before"
"This time you will stay gone, that's for sure"

And he shattered something else
To drag her suitcase down the path
To the driveway
She had never gone that far

Normally this would be the time that she
Would let him talk her out of leaving
But this time, without crying
as she got into her car, she said

"No, Happily Never After
That just ain't for me
Because finally, I know
I deserve better, after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall"

As she drove away she starts to smile
Realized she hadn't for a while
No destination, she drove for miles
Wondering why she stayed in such denial

She was laughing about the way he shattered something else
To drag her suitcase down the path
To the driveway
She had never gone that far
Normally this would be the time that she
Would let him talk her out of leaving
But this time, without crying
As she got into her car, she said

"No, Happily Never After
That just ain't for me
Because finally, I know
I deserve better, after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall"

I'm done, I'm done, said I'm so done
I'm free, I'm free, so free
Free to feel the way I feel, yeah

She inhales a breath she'd never breathed before
Don't want no drama no more

Cause she says "No, Happily Never After
That just ain't for me
I know I deserve better after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall"

"No, Happily Never After
That just ain't for me because finally
I know I deserve better after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall"

Said I'm done, I'm done, I'm done

Broken

There are some things
that you just can't mend
but you will try to fix it
cause you just can't throw 'em all away
as it meant so much to you

God is busy

Before I get into the story...

At work, we have what we call a Duty Manager (DM) (normally is a manager, or assistant manager, or on weekends: team leader) who, in simple terms manages calls vs resources/head counts (anybody who knows: please correct me if I'm wrong :b).

Due to the fact that we need to have a balanced head count at all times at work, we are required to ask permission from the duty manager (DM) before we go to break (toilet break, pantry break, prayer break). Yeah, I can hear you going WHAT??? Yes, like school kids. We moan about that occassionally.


Here's story of today (Hey, it rhymes!)

So today noon-evening DM is one who most of the time seems to gets a lot of problems (like one of our main application will be down and stuff like that) when he's on duty; not that he wants but that's how things seem to frequently turn out. Btw, he's also a friend who can kid/joke around.

As soon as I saw him on duty, I private messaged (we have our own chat thingy within office network) him..

Me: u dm?
DM: yeah. y
Me: bad lor
DM: y
Me: always a lot of problems 1
DM: yalor. look at the calls (calls started pouring in like heavy rain =.=)
(the chat went something like that)


Later...

A malay girl asked for prayer break.
DM told her to go. Fast. As in, do it fast and come back fast.

So I private messaged him again...
Me: how to pray fast?
DM: can la. god also busy what.
Me: LOL. yeah, he's busy creating problems for u.
DM: yalor. cis.

And yes, our so important messenger thingy went crazy too...
Pity him. Don't know why he has such luck ;b

Finally...

... that someone I knew just plain disliked me (or maybe it's my actions...?) said what was on its mind. Blurting and churning.

LOLz.

I do not know to laugh or to cry.

It's the one person who can't be pleased.

Not in any way.

Right also unpleased.

Wrong also cannot.

So dramatic.

I should just move on.

Love...

... is like the wind

You can't touch it

But you can feel it

I heard 2 of my friends who seem to have feelings for each other. Most friends teased them about it. When questioned, they denied the feelings for each other. Over the weekend, I saw the way they act around each other. Really beh tahan that no one made a move lor. But as feelings grow, they got closer together.

Something must have happened over the weekend. Cause suddenly they became really close. At the moment, nobody knows the status. But HE seems really happy. LOL.

They look cute together (to me anyway~). I hope it works out between them.

move on?

Suddenly today
I felt that
All these while
I have been in the comfort zone
Maybe for too long?
Was I too comfortable?

People come & go
But I am still there
People moved on
But I am still at that same place
Waiting for that something
That eventually did not happen

Not once
But twice
The window opened
But nothing happened
It just shut again
Leaving me with questions

Maybe
It is time to move on?
But
To where?

Caught another bug

Aiyo, I thought I was getting better.
But I caught another bug today.
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No la, not ladybug.
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Nooo... Not any insect -bug.
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Haih... the Blur Bug lor... I can't seem to understand what anyone is saying. Until they repeat it. At least twice. Some even repeated more than that. But I still couldn't get it. And I told those who patiently repeated few times, "Nevermind. No need repeat already la. I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't understand what are you talking about..."

Seriously. I couldn't digest words today.
Blur Bug. Sure is one horrible bug.

First...

MC of the year.
The usual - sore throat, cough, fever.
The worse this time: sore throat. Hurts to even swallow saliva ;b



Just wanted to 'pen' down something(s) I remembered...

The other day, a user from Sabah/Sarawak (can't remember) was asking to fix her problem on an urgent basis. In a cheeky manner, she said "my work are piling up like Mount KK le!"... *laughs* "If I don't get it done soon, it's gonna be like Mount Everest d..."

Today, a support reverted an email (I was in the cc loop), "Please resend. The file probably got lost in the ocean."

Innocence

Sometime last week, we (13.5yo cousin, 9.5yo cousin & me) were watching the idiot box when Zoey101 came on.

I suddenly remembered reading something somewhere lead actress, Jamie Lynn Spears, so I started dishing it out to my 13.5yo cousin. The younger one heard & a question soon followed. It just slipped out when I answered him "how can life be normal after you have a baby?" (especially in a teenager's case!).
He gave a puzzled look & said "I don't understand how can a 16/17yo be married already.."
That was followed by a silence.

Emm.. How do you even tell a 9.5yo that it's not neccessary that one would be pregnant only if you are married?
I rest my case. It's not my job to answer that question anyway...